Struggles

Every single freaking day is a struggle.

Somehow I manage to survive, I wake up every day, I'm still breathing and my senses are still there. I am not a religious person but I consider myself blessed, I lost my faith in God when I started college because the very first day of college every mistake I have done back in high school came rushing back literally telling me that I won't get away from the things I have gone through during high school.

But this is college and I wasn't going to let it get to me and ruin the plan I had for myself while at college. 

It's a fresh for me.

A clean slate if you will.

I was a lot happier with myself when I gained friends on the very first day of class. I was happy because, the first time in a long time, I felt like the college me is a new me.

Midterms came and the stress was getting to the best of me and my new set of friends, I had 2 friends who I hung out with most of my time in school. One of them had a huge problem with the other one. In the end, we managed to say sorry to one another after opening up.

That was the climax of our friendship because when finals came, it all came crashing down. We had a problem involving my other friend, because the issue that my block and I had with her, was her arrogance. She was too self-centered, arrogant in sports, competitive as well and too bossy, but as her friend, I was just there for her.

For some reason, we decided to tell her and the next thing I know, the blame was on me. I called her a bitch because I thought that it meant nothing to her.

My friendship with these 2 girls went down the rabbit hole and it was the end for the three of us.

I didn't want to see them anymore so I became an irregular student all of my classes were in different block sections. This particular term, I met the block I am currently in. In this block, I think, I was given a chance to start over I was really really glad and happy, I still am.

I dont want to share my whole entire story with you but know this, Life can be shitty and in the near future, it still will be but accept it, move on and be happy.

Old friends can be replaced with new ones. These shitty moments of your life are put in your life for a reason.

Think about it, loves. 

Okay? 

All the love. 

xxB